I’m not sure how this will get over to you, I might have writing it down all weird and wrong. I tried my best to get this feeling in to words, but honestly that can be quite hard sometimes.
A few months ago I kept telling myself, “Whenever I find a girl my life will get better. It’s going to be everything I’ve ever needed. ”
As if all of my problems would suddenly fade away, as if they could erase parts of my life that I didn’t like.
Of course it would probably make me happier, and it would solve the problems related to being alone, however, I do not need to date, or have a relationship I want to.
I’ve learned that for being me, I only need friends and family. A love relationship is something that I would really like, but it’s not like I can’t survive without it.
I’ll be honest, it’s not like I would like to be single for another couple years. Also it does suck sometimes to be one of the friends who will always go to parties by myself, get home by myself, eat dinner by myself and go to bed by myself, as to others who won’t be alone in most of these things. But then again, I do not need a women. I can do all of these things by myself, no problem. I can be happy by myself, no problem.
I just need to see it, I just needed to realize that being single is okay, that being single doesn’t define who I am, just like being in a relationship wouldn’t change who I am, or my self-worth. The way i view the world is what defines me, and my self-worth.
I guess what I meant to say is: Society is basically making people think they need a significant other, even though they don’t actually need that. You get pushed in to dating sites and blind dates and what not, because people think you can’t be happy without someone. Or just because that’s what they’ve learned as well..
Well I’m telling you now, my happy isn’t defined by who and if I’m dating, it’s defined by the way I live my life.
This all is not to say that I don’t want a relationship, or that I don’t think it sucks to be single sometimes, because I do, for sure! What I’m saying is, I can be happy without it. it’s something that will come, when the time is right, and till then, I can be perfectly happy without.